Jamming

Week 2's weigh in went well - down 4.2 lbs.  Amazing how working the plan and tracking food to stay in points range works.  

A bit of sarcasm there.

This weekend is the 4th annual Twin Cities SL Jam down in Eagan. The first two years I helped with coordination, and backed away from the project after the second jam due to all of the drama. It's amazing how entitled and bullying people can be. I stopped at the 3rd jam back in 2018 on the Friday evening to say hi who I wanted to. (I had an out of town wedding Saturday to Sunday).  Anyway, I went last night after work and it was so great to (again) see the people I wanted to.  And the cliques and drama-causers? Not there. How much more refreshing a jam can be when you're not depended on and you can truly enjoy yourself and not feel like you're in high school again. I got multiple comments about "how good you look". And was extremely surprised - because I'm definitely bigger (and obviously older) compared to the last time I saw everyone. Was it because I went into this with a lot more confidence and that made me "look" better? I don't understand it. 

Anyway, my mindset is great right now. I hope it stays that way. I'm being much more mindful about what I'm eating and I'm tracking everything. The WW app is so much easier to use than before too.

Recipe of the week: Slow Cooker Cream Cheese Crack Chicken  (I made this a few months ago and froze the leftovers - I got it out of the freezer this week and have been finishing it. Just as good as when I first made it.)

Back in the saddle again.

Just under two weeks ago, I rejoined Weight Watchers...again. Needed a new frame of mind. A reboot. A fresh start.  I'm up at what was about my starting weight the LAST time I restarted. I've gone completely off the rails from a food perspective.  Eating what I want, when I want it. And stress triggers that even more.  

Since the last time I wrote, a lot has happened.  (Understatement of the century?)

• Experienced a global pandemic
• Escaped a toxic job
• Started a job at an amazing company
• Adopted the sweetest dog

Anyway, the first week on the plan was more of a shocker. I ate as I had, and tracked everything, and realized HOW much food I was eating. That showed on the scale on my first weigh-in last week. I went back to the same Tuesday session in the same location...it felt good to go back after 4 years. (I'm still the youngest one there, by a long shot.) At that meeting, I shared with the group that I was returning, and got so much support from everyone in the room - some faces new, and some familiar from when I had left 4 years ago.

On a completely random note: I'm re-watching Ally McBeal from the beginning. Is this a sign that I miss that "sexual tension" office relationship - specifically AWC? Perhaps. There was something about having that someone that my heart enjoyed seeing and talking to everyday, our weekly lunches out - and those butterflies in my stomach that went along with every minute of it. 

I miss feeling that way. I miss him.

I'm going to try to write more often about my journey. We'll see if I can stick to it like I do "the plan".

Recipe of the week: Egg Roll in a Bowl